thus the basis of its appeal.
(--tenthingsihateaboutyou throwbackmuch?)

on the gender binary and other things..

the short documentary The Codes of Gender is rather good,

but when the topic of the gender binary came up, it was asserted that “transgendered and transsexual people have challenged this distinction.”

i would think that most or many trans people actually fit successfully into the gender binary, should they so choose. isn’t that what “passing” is? just like someone who would have been born biologically male or female and happens to feel comfortable within the binary that society is accepting of.

with acceptance of the understanding that sex is not gender, i don’t really believe someone’s status as cis or trans has much to do with challenging the gender binary, but rather, any individual’s choice to do so would, obviously, signify this.

additionally, someone who identifies as androgynous or genderqeer would, i think, be the most likely to be defying the norm of gender stereotypes. even so, someone who most often identifies as andro. could easily choose at any time to personify a more strictly defined classically ”masculine” or “feminine” identity, just as one who is comfortable in a binary category may be free to present her or himself as androgynous at any time.

...it's not your fault.

..if I asked you about art, you’d probably give me the skinny on every art book ever written. Michelangelo...but I’ll bet you can’t tell me what it smells like in the Sistine Chapel. You’ve never actually stood there and looked up at that beautiful ceiling; seen that.


If I ask you about women, you’d probably give me a syllabus about your personal favorites. You may have even been laid a few times. But you can’t tell me what it feels like to wake up next to a woman and feel truly happy.



You’re a tough kid.



And I’d ask you about war, you’d probably throw Shakespeare at me, right, “once more unto the breach dear friends.” But you’ve never been near one...I’d ask you about love, you’d probably quote me a sonnet. But you’ve never looked at a woman and been totally vulnerable...


You don’t know about real loss, ‘cause it only occurs when you’ve loved something more than you love yourself. And I doubt you’ve ever dared to love anybody that much.


And look at you… I don’t see an intelligent, confident man… I see a cocky, scared shitless kid. But you’re a genius Will. No one denies that. No one could possibly understand the depths of you.


--robin williams as sean maguire in good will hunting.

devoid of creativity.
on all fronts.
going on twenty or so weeks, now..

eminem's new lyric,

"have you ever been hated, or discriminated against? i have. i've been protested and demonstrated against."

is funny. 'cause the people protesting his shows/records were the ones who were marginalized by discrimination coming from him. and his violently homophobic and misogynistic lyrics.



when you’re saying oppressive shit and you’re being rewarded on a grand scale with something like a grammy award for said oppressive speech/expression, there’s bound to be backlach. to then use a situation like that, and refer to one’s self as having being discriminated against is simply inaccurate.

..and now, having already won two grammy awards for the new album with this song on it, he’ll be making more money via said lyric. it’s just very funny.

To days of inspiration: playing hooky, making something out of nothing; the need to express, to communicate. To going against the grain, going insane, going mad. To loving tension. No pension. To more than one dimension. To starving for attention, hating convention. Hating pretension. Not to mention, of course, hating dear old mom and dad.

To riding your bike midday past the three piece suits. To fruits. To no absolutes. To Absolut. To choice. To the Village Voice. To any passing fad.


(To being an 'us' for once, instead of a 'them.')


La vie boheme.

Interviewer: Trouble, the name of the album; were you ever in trouble? Were you always in trouble? Where did the title come from?

Ray Lamontagne: I had a hard time from 12 to 24. I had a very, very hard time finding any sort of peace within myself, or any idea of who I was or what I was going to do with my life. And I was very reckless with myself at times.

now I see
just how young, how scared I was.
eyes closed tight,
throwing punch after punch at the world.

--ray lamontagne, "sarah"

i never did understand stoic.
expressive is the only dialect
i'm readily able to decipher.