they're the best.

of any (unrealistic) on-screen romance,
this is the one i'd replicate, if given the option.
and we'd both be as witty as diablo cody's screenplay.
sans child.

things to love about '90s television:

1. plaid.


2. cut-off denim vests.


3. the layering of plaid over another type of plaid, under a cut-off denim vest.


4. REM.


5. the cranberries.


6. smashing pumpkins.


7. rage against the machine.


8. scrunchies.


9. lack of cell phone culture.


10. references to bill, hillary, and chelsea clinton.


11. clueless parents who are certain they're correct about whatever it is, who then try to talk to their children, and are always wrong. always.


12. that the clueless parents actually tried to talk to their kids. regardless of how wrong they were, or how uncomfortable everyone was. always.

It just seems like you agree to have a certain personality, or something. For no reason. Just to make things easier for everyone. But when you think about it, I mean, how to do you know if it's even you?

And, i mean, this whole thing with yearbook; it's like, everyone's in this big hurry to make this book, to supposedly remember everything that happened, but it's not even what really happened. It's what everybody thinks was supposed to happen. Because, if you made a book of what really happened, it'd be a really upsetting book.

--clare danes as angela chase. my so-called life.

phoebe in wonderland.

Jaime: You were so different on stage. ..How come you spit?

Phoebe: I don’t know. Why do you wanna play a girl’s part?

Jaime: It’s a play. I can do whatever I want.

Phoebe: But why do you do it when everyone makes fun of you?

Jaime: Because.

Phoebe: So, because for me, too. ..Sometimes, I get this feeling. This feeling to jump off a roof.

Jaime: You wanna die?

Phoebe: No! It’s what I feel like. All the time. With the things I do. I know I shouldn’t, but I can’t help it. It’s like being on the edge of a roof. All the time.

nostalgia.

and another..

during the song "northshore," off of their latest LP, sainthood.

i took some mediocre photos with my little camera,

and then i forgot about them.
from 6th august 2010, at the Honda Civic Tour.

people are somehow really excellent at constantly letting down expectations of what we perceive them to be like.
good and bad.

but maybe that's just my experience.
or maybe perceptions are bullshit.

otherness is overwhelming.
especially when there's too much of it.

too many unpopular opinions.
too many principles
too many convictions
politics too loud.

too many thoughts
too much thinking
too contemplative
not__________enough.

...There must have been. I mean, there's rumors about it. Some of the people who have shaped our humanity, our civilization, were gay. That's just the reality of it. But we don't get to see that being put into the context of our history.


I talked to this woman on a plane about "gay people," and I didn't tell her I was gay, she brought it up on her own, and basically, from her (perspective), and the majority of society it seems -- upper class, white, middle America -- thinks that gay people like to party and buy clothes. And have sex. And do drugs. Like it's a party culture.



They don't think that we can be great politicians, or great minds, or great thinkers, or great artists, or great painters, or great musicians. There's this idea that if you're gay you're being held back. She actually said that "gay marriage is a great thing," because it would help "ground us" as gay people.

--sara quin

cloud nine is prettyfuckingawesome.
don't want this time and headspace to pass.