photo above by me. photos below via the interwebs. text by me, unless otherwise noted.

13 June 2010

fail·ure 
–noun
1. an act or instance of failing or proving unsuccessful; lack of success: His effort ended in failure. The campaign was a failure.

2. nonperformance of something due, required, or expected: a failure to do what one has promised; a failure to appear.

3. a subnormal quantity or quality; an insufficiency: the failure of crops.

4. a condition of being bankrupt by reason of insolvency.

5. a becoming insolvent or bankrupt: the failure of a bank.

6. a person or thing that proves unsuccessful: He is a failure in his career.

12 June 2010

10 June 2010

i want this.



i want this.




...and this.




and this one, too.

joan miro.

Photo: ceci est le couleur de mis reves.
Photo: this is the color of my dreams.






i want a print.
but i can't find one.


no good.

08 June 2010

methodical.

06 June 2010

what is the sum of it all?
we can't erase awareness.

02 June 2010

never once
did i think to retaliate.
to scream my life into
your open eyes.

linguists have yet to translate my
intentions.
verbal
cerebral
physiological
insanity
is the diagnonsensical categorical
conscientious
consensus.

play on
off
on
off
on words
doesn't even begin
to begin covering it.

whatever that
may or may not mean to you
tomorrow.

23 May 2010

22 May 2010

"it's better to lose than to never have had."

"i lost something i never had."


--foer.
re
sent
ment.

19 May 2010

i don't really know
what happens now.

18 May 2010

it's nonsensical bullshit.

true or false?

In the context of my life, it all matters very much.

12 May 2010

living in the time between
the things that happen.

11 May 2010

channeling jeffrey mcdaniel.

free falling up downward spiraling
escalator; cemented sideways near
moving sidewalk inside terminal numbered
8 and one half, with view of runway
where planes only slow enough for pilots to
chinese firedrill with
crossdress(k)ing stewardesses who will be late in
dispensing soft drinks to passengers begging to be
sedated into their complimentary headphones.

10 May 2010

not good enough.

05 May 2010

of course the times square (non)bomber is pakistani. i was genuinely hoping it was some crazy redhead or a blonde or a guy named Joe Brown or some other non-middle eastern man or woman. it would be the stereotypical subject in a terrorist attack, proliferating those wonderful prejudices that have intensified over the past ten years.

i really wish these people had an awareness of and cared about the kind of impact they have on other regular, law abiding people who look like them and have similar last names.

(obviously the possession of this awareness would probably stifle the desire harm the masses.)

04 May 2010

my hands are barely holding up my head.



all the salt inside my body
ruins everyone i come close to.

30 April 2010

wondering when we stop defining what we (don't) believe, and start examining why.

24 April 2010

city air on
bare skin is
sandstorm.

09 April 2010

In Newsweek's April 5th issue, Jonathan Alter's political editorial of the week focuses on "persistent progressivism," and the role of current democratic legislators in pushing for and executing tangible change in the face of the filibuster-happy right wing and its "gesture politics."

Says Alter,


"The question is whether the success of President Obama's emerging governing philosophy -- what might be called persisitent-progressivism -- can be extended into realms beyond health care."

Namely, can the Democrats keep the ruckus of the right wing to a minimum, and in doing so, stay on target and create the change that Obama's campaign promised?



We've already seen the first half of this administration's time come and go.



And after having read the article, the question that remains is, (not so) simply, when did the term "progressive" become a label that holds so much weight? I don't refer to Alter's interpretation, but to the left-wing, right-wing, choose-a-side-or-be-labeled-a-centrist, landscape that has developed into the contemporary political spectrum.

Behind the definitive lines by which red and blue have been divided lay the ideals and principles that have formed and continue to shape America's major political parties. But where are they?



When did the labels placed upon political parties begin to dictate values?



When was it that being a republican began to mean taking Fox news more seriously than the RNC chairperson, while democrats pitied and were embarrassed by the right wing? When was it that voters began to choose between the united, filibustering party of "no," and the whining party of seemingly reasonable but overtly unlikable policy?

It was probably in close proximity to the time when the word bipartisanship became the biggest joke since civil rights; great in theory, but never making much measurable progress when in practice.


Looking further into the differences between progressives and conservatives also begs the question, why do people align themselves with said poles of the socio-political spectrum?



When was it that the idea that every person could be the same, that every child could be in school, that every citizen could see a doctor, and eat, and live sustainably, became so radical? Why is it "socialist" to believe that people shouldn't die, simply because we were too busy buying shit that we don't need, with money that we didn't need?

And why is it so hard to believe that by providing each person with even one meal every day wouldn't put a dent into any of our bank accounts?

When was it that giving a damn began to translate to being a progressive, gay-loving, planet-saving, tree-hugging, peace-marching, granola-eating, baby-killing monster? (And what is so offensive about love, peace, trees, and granola? Though, obviously, that's not the point.)


What is it that cements the minds of the people that are, apparently, in charge of overseeing the democratic republic of the USA, from being able to change, accept, and protect the diversity that is found within this nation's borders? Votes. Money. Greed. Power.

And on both sides of party lines.

With so much partisan conflict, it's still unclear what the 2010 election season will bring about. There are several congressional and senatorial seats up for grabs; will an increasingly liberal social climate garner votes to help the left uphold the slim democratic majority, or are voters tired of waiting so long for effective change to take place? And whatever they choose, are they aware of how each candidate will behave once the race for votes wraps up?

04 April 2010

to prove: to establish the truth or genuineness of, as by evidence or argument.

to justify: to show a satisfactory reason or excuse for something done.

satisfactory: competent, adequate, suitable, passable.




it has become unequivocally apparent that searching for more than what is presently existent is both completely inevitable and profoundly disappointing.

28 March 2010

we are alone in our conciousness.


feeble attempts at making connections go
unfulfilled;

we seek to remedy the inherent
lonlieness that accompanies the
impermanence and fragility that is
the human condition.




or, at least, to ignore it.